Insomniac Nights

There would be nights that I lay wakeful. I would then have left the bed and sat outside the veranda, looking at the sky. On those nights, I tried to run my thoughts of the things I have so far done and did not do, whether I felt good or bad about myself by acting the way I did or did not. On those nights, I look back and evaluate if the personal goals I have set for myself are worthwhile. I realized and affirm myself yet again that, with God on top of everything else, getting myself goals worth working for makes my life worthwhile. To share with you, I believe in getting myself or my family a project. The effect on me is that I always have something ahead of me to “look forward to”, “work for”, “hope for” and “pray for”.

There are times on those nights when I fear I shall not be able to go back working in a hospital again or see the people dearest to my heart in the Philippines as often as I want to, for that matter, when the time comes when God will send me to foreign lands or not know where I will go when I leave this world (and when?). I know that it is not given to people by God to know the ends of their journeys. It may be that I will never return to the places dearest to me. But how can that matter, if what I must do is here and now?

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